Secrets: Publicized

Stop playing that card. It doesn't work with me anymore. I'm not a counsellor. I'm far from that - but you'd be the last to know, wouldn't you? It's hard to believe you cant see the wrong in yourself - when that's all that's visible to me. What happened to that smile? The one that assured me you meant no harm, in anything you did. I cant remember the last time it came out. Truth be told, I cant remember anything about you. The letters you wrote to me don't make any sense now, and the looks you give me don't either. I cant explain what happened, but I'm sure you can. But hey, nothing's ever your fault, right? You stand there, looking at me like everything's perfect, and nothing could get better; meanwhile, I look at you and see that we've hit rock bottom, and there's nothing that could make things worse. But there you go again, proving me wrong. Things COULD get worse. And they have. You look absolutely disgusting now.. Trying to cover your ass before picking up the pieces of what we had. I don't think you'll ever see that they never really did fit. Forcing them together didn't work. Can you see it now? We've only got ourselves to blame. When you finally realize that, I'll work on respecting you again.

"So from now on, when I think of you,

I remember that you could've been

the best thing I ever had..."

It's not that I dont want you..

It's that I want you more than anything.

I'm afraid I wont be able to spend my life with you, like I want to..

So I shut myself out from you, thinking the feelings will go away,

And maybe I wont need to have you here, every minute that I'm breathing.

HAKUNA MATATA

it means no worries

Something Special

I think everyone has that one person you can always go to, no matter how low you get, or how amazing you feel. A person you look up to, cherish, and cant live without, no matter how hard you try. The fights, the tears, and the laughs that lead to tears, all build up to a new relationship, one that you know keeps your life on the right track. No matter how offensive, rude, or brutally honest they can be, you know you can always go to them for that helping hand when you feel as if you're about to break down. They have that side to them you always wish you had. You look up to them, even when they themselves feel as if the whole world is above them. Strong and compassionate is exactly what you describe them as - eventhough you can both see the soft and delicate side in eachother. They're the foundation to your success, and your ticket to happiness. I can proudly say I've found this person, and whether either of us like it or not, it's a friendship worth keeping for a lifetime.

"I'm not saying it was your fault,

although you could've done more.

Oh you're so naive."

Definitely a quote I can relate to.. In all honesty, I don't see how you could see what you did as right, or how you could - on any level - relate it to what I'm doing. I thought you were doing so well, changing things for the better. I was so proud of you. You know I was, I told you everyday. There's no way I think that now. Maybe everything I saw, and everything I thought was through rose coloured glasses. Was everything just part of this big show you're attempting to put on? Or are you actually trying to blossom into something better than you were before? I'd like to think you are. Either way, you know just as well as I do that I wont hold this against you forever. Heck, I probably wont even bring it to your attention. I just hope you realize that I know. Maybe it's not all your fault. Maybe it's my own fault. I mean, it wasn't that hard to see. Yeah, I'm definitely the naive one this time.