Enemy 'til Proven Friend.

Please show me.
Show me I wasn't wrong,
and that the feeling in my stomach is just hunger.
I mean, you cried.
That has to count for something.

...

This always happens.
Me; rethinking everything,
over-analyzing the simplist of choices.

...

But this isnt simple.
For one, you're my bestfriend;
you deserve a second chance..
Mind you, you're my bestfriend
after all that trust you broke,
do you really think you should have gotten
that much out of me?
This isnt supposed to be happening.

That's it.
I'm moving to England.

It's sad when people you know become people you knew. When you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life. How you used to be able to talk for hours and now, you can barely even look at them.. It's sad how times can change without you even knowing it.

You want to talk?

It's been 5 months, why start now?

It's your turn now. Fight for my attention, keep me involved, and try to be half the friend i was to you. Five months. That's all it took for you to throw away a friendship of 4 years. That's how long it took me to actually realize your worth. And finally, that's how long you had to build up the courage to tell me how shady and untrusting you've been. The lines of "I was scared to tell you" aren’t working. If you think I'm so terrifying, then why stick around as long as you did? Because I can tell you right now - I feel as if you were a complete waste of time. I feel like each and every minute I spent with you was a lie. I feel I deserve better. All of this because you were "too afraid to tell me". What was I going to say? I mean, really.. Think up the worst case scenario. And now tell me it wouldn’t be easier than what you're dealing with now. But hey, there's nothing you can do. I've tried to connect with you. Don’t even try to say I haven’t. You're the one that hasn’t met me half way. What was I to you? A free ticket to show people you weren’t a loser? Your prop so you didn’t have to sit alone? Because let me tell you - That's what I see in you. A user and a fake. So continue on with your games, your lies, and you life. Just let me know which path you've chosen to take. The one I knew, or the one I want no part of. Either way, you've lost your chance with me. Mind you, it looks like I wasn’t worth your time of day anyway.

This isn’t easy for me, but at least the truth is coming out.